Do you ever have a time in your life when you feel as if you are losing you? When it feels like life is consuming you, literally? I feel like that right now. Like a failure at everything I do, Like I blend into the backdrop, like I am not accomplishing anything in this life. Like I am at a stand still, with no crossroads ahead. It feels like I can do nothing right, like all I do and touch fails or just does not matter. I feel like that things I do on a daily basis do not matter, like I am unappreciated. BUT I guess that is what being a mom is all about, doing the "things" and living life. Anyhow that is what is on my mind lately.
We did put the house on the market again and are going to try to move a bit closer to Miah's job. I will not live in Schenectady but closer would be nice. And closer to church so we can be more involved with the weekly things that we all so desperately need. We have to sell the house we currently own to move and have tried 3xs before so we shall see what this time brings! I am not very optimistic about it though. I know that is and when it is the Lord's will we will sell and move, HE is ultimately in control.
I am trying to start the Christmas shopping and then on to save $ for the cruise in Jan.
That is pretty much it for know, Tah-Tah
